Blind Lust (1957)

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Blind Lust

Being a True Account
Of The Adventures
Of
M. De Vycabre
and
Other French Celebrities

Maurice Gauthier

Francois Press [Jack Brussel? NY 1957(?)].
1857,

[Illustrated by Mahlon Blaine]

PART ONE
I have often been asked to write my memoirs. I have always resisted
the blandishments of mere curiosity, however I will yield to yours, my
dear Lucien, for I firmly believe in the sincerity of the affection which
bound us together during so many years despite the combined
witchcrafts of time and absence.
Besides has not my sweetest law always been to obey your will?
Not so, I hear you murmur. I assure you that I am telling you the plain
truth, and to punish you for your wicked doubt, I will compel you to
follow me into the country, far enough removed from the place in
which we actually dwell.
It is towards the Garden of France that we must turn our steps; at some
kilometres from Tours, a pleasant city near which lies the Chateau de
Pauvanne, the abode of the Marquis de Pauvanne, my grandmother.
It was within the walls of this handsome thirteenth century edifice that
the days of my infancy and my youth slipped by.
Sequestered beneath the shade of the venerable trees, adorned with
magnificent flowers, refreshed by a dainty stream with its capricious
meanderings bathing the skirt of the park, it offered to the glance the
most picturesque aspect that one could dream of.
Like the greater part of the young girls belonging to the local
aristocracy, my studies took place at the Convent de Marmoutiers.
Then as I grew up, my grandmother desirous of seeing my youth make
sunny her white hairs, came one day and took me from the arms of
Mother Eudoxie, and carried me off to Pauvanne.
From the child which I had been the day before, I now became a young
lady; I had my suite of rooms and my own waiting maid and this
2
seemed to me to be infinitely more delightful than my residence at
Marmoutiers.
Not, however, that my life was gay at Pauvanne, no, my grandmother
was no longer able to go about; her legs scarcely permitting her to
walk even a short distance in the grounds. Hence being unable to
accompany her, she gave me full liberty to come and go within the
walled enclosures of Pauvanne.
The estate being of considerable extent, I had plenty of elbow room,
and I profited by it to explore it to the utmost recesses.
My greatest happiness was to wander in its wildest nooks, and even to
lose myself therein, in the reveries of a girl of seventeen.
These reveries were, I ought to own, always of the same nature.
A strange vagueness pervaded my soul; my imagination flew off to
unknown regions, and presented to my eyes images of tenderness and
devotion in which a young and beautiful man always became the hero.
Although profoundly ignorant with regard to the difference of sex, my
senses, already awakened, stirred throughout my entire organism.
Flashes of scorching blood often obscured my sight, my legs trembled
and I was obliged to sit down, compelled by the influence of an
enervating sensation at once painful and pleasing.
I had left the convent at Easter, and April and May intoxicated me
with their odours of springtime; and June despite the heat, could only
increase my desire for these solitary strolls.
It was in the morning, beyond all other times, that I made my escape,
not yet having lost the habit of early rising which the Nuns inculcate
in their pupils. And I have often seen the first rays of the sun issue from
the midst of the night and make golden the heaths and fir plantations
of Pauvanne.
3
On my return from one of these excursions, I heard my grandmother
announce the expected arrival of my aunt, Helene, news which caused
me to cry out in joy.
Helene de Torcol was twenty-five years old and ravishingly beautiful.
For the past two years she had been the widow of the Baron de Torcol,
an old man of eighty, with whom her twenty years of age had been
cynically associated.
Happily, the Baron promptly took the step of departing to the Lord to
ask him for the recompense of his merits and his widow found herself
free, without children, and with a yearly income of two hundred
thousand francs.
She was certainly the most ravishing person that one could dream of.
Her hair, black as ebony, set off the whiteness of her complexion and it
was lit up by the radiancy of the two large brown eyes. Her wide and
sensual mouth was habitually slightly open revealing her pearly
pointed teeth. Imperceptible black down slightly marked her upper
lips and revealed a nature by no means destitute of virility.
Neither too tall nor too short, her dainty figure admirably shaped, with
the hand and feet of a child, she appeared to me and to many others of
marvelous beauty.
I adored her, her lively vivacious character had long before captivated
me, and then accustomed to living in the company of an old lady, I
always regarded the coming of Helene as the signal for a crowd of
distractions.
We had passed a year together at Marmoutiers, where she was in the
highest and I in the lowest class, so I looked upon her more as a friend
than as a relation.
4
For some months back there had been talk of her proposed marriage to
the Count de Vycabre, and my grandmother who approved the match,
had written to the Count inviting him to pay a visit to the Chateau.
The Count did not need pressing and a few days later came and
installed himself at Pauvanne.
The proximity, so close to me, of this engaged couple brought a notable
perturbation into my life.
Here we touch upon a delicate matter and I do not know in truth that I
can talk about it chastely.
Let Dame Chastity sleep! I hear you insinuate to me.
Alas! I greatly fear that in effect, it will have to be so, and arming
myself with an imperturbable assurance I continue.
One morning very early in accordance with my custom, I had hidden
myself deep in the park. Seated at the foot of a tree, my mind plunged
in vague reverie, I lost all count of time, when an unexpected noise
called my to my senses, and I heard steps coming in my direction.
Much perplexed I sank down and, putting aside the foliage, I
perceived the profile of my aunt, who was clothed in white and blue
morning gown.
M. de Vycabre in a Nanking undress, with a straw hat on his head
accompanied her.
They seemed to be talking very eagerly and instinct warned me to
avoid their seeing me. I concealed myself behind a dense clump of
trees.
The promenaders soon stood still near me, M. de Vycabre glanced
round him and his inspection doubtless convinced him that no one
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could observe them, for he threw his arms around my aunt's waist and
drawing her to him, pressed her against his breast. Their lips met and I
heard the exchange of a long kiss.
Without understanding the reason, I felt my heart beating violently as
I overheard these words—
'I love you passionately. What a frightful time I have passed without
you, my angel—my sweet beloved one—my dear Helene, we shall
never leave each other again. Come closer so that I can again be kissed
by your lovely eyes, your pretty teeth, your delicious neck—ah, I
could eat you!'
My aunt, far from resisting, abandoned herself to him and returned kiss
for kiss and caress for caress; her colour was heightened and her
beautiful eyes were half closed.
'My Rene!' she said, 'I love you as much as you love me, I belong to you
entirely!'
The sight of these caresses produced an indescribable effect in me. My
senses quickened as though struck by an electric spark and I almost
lost consciousness.
However, I at once regained my self possession and continued to be all
eyes and ears.
M. Rene was asking for something which I did not understand, and he
appeared to be pressing his request.
'No,' replied Helene, 'not here, I beg of you, I should never dare. Mon
Dieu! if anybody were to see us, I should die of it.'
'But dearest, how can anybody see us at this hour?'
6
'I don't know, but I am afraid. Stay—do you see I could have no
pleasure; we will seek a means to come together, I pray you.'
'How can you talk to me of patience in the state I am in? Give me your
little hand, judge for yourself.'
The Count took my aunt's hand and put it squarely between his legs so
that it was impossible for me to explain to myself the motive. My
astonishment became much greater when I saw her hand quickly
disappear in a gap that she had quickly unbuttoned.
What she found there I was unable to judge, I saw nothing, but I heard
her say with the tenderest inflection:
'Dear Mimi, I see that you have a great desire! And how beautiful you
are, I also wish for it greatly, if we only had some shelter I could so
quickly put you to right!'
And her little hand moved itself sweetly up and down, while M. de
Vycabre stood motionless and enrapt, his legs slightly apart and
seemed to enjoy a lively pleasure. After a moment's silence, my aunt
exclaimed:
'Ah!'—then suddenly—'what an idea! Come, I recollect there is a
convenient pavilion near by, you understand me—it is a singular
place in which to screen our love, but no one will see us and I can be
entirely yours—come!'
The pavilion of which my aunt spoke had been constructed with a
foresight of the feebleness of poor humanity and was in the shape of a
cottage of two rooms, it was in good order, so that in case of being
surprised by a heavy shower, one might take refuge there.
Protected as I was by the high shrubbery, I could approach the place
without fear of being seen. I managed this with infinite precautions
7
and arrived behind the pavilion just as Helene and M. de Vycabre
entered.
The Count after casting a glance around the grounds to see if they had
been watched, shut the door and pushed the bolt on the inside which
protected the entrance of this convenient hidey-hole. I looked about
for a commodious observatory and it was speedily found.
The boards and tree trunk, badly joined, presented me with a sufficient
opening to see plainly. I placed my eyes to it and held my breath,
being witness to that which I shall now describe.
Helene hanging on the neck of M. de Vycabre, devoured him with
kisses.
'Come, my dear,' she said, 'it was with a very bad grace that I refused
you, but fear prevented me. Here at least I feel reassured. And this
good Mimi, what a feast I am going to give him! Stay, thinking about it
is nothing, how shall we fix ourselves?'
The pavilion was furnished very primitively, in the first apartment was
a wooden seat with a large tree trunk and its branches for a back.
'Rest quietly, we will find a suitable position, but first let me look at
Biby—it is so long since I examined her that I am convulsed with
desire.'
I delivered myself up to strange reflections on hearing this dialogue
and on seeing their actions. What were they going to do? I was not
long in finding out.
M. de Vycabre going on one knee, lifted up Helene's petticoats and
chemise and seemed to fall into ecstasy.
8
Under a delicate cambric chemise were revealed two legs worthy of
Venus and perfectly moulded, clad in silk stockings, fastened above
the knee with flame-coloured garters.
Then above these garters, two adorable thighs, white round and firm
which joined one another at their summit, under a fleece of black and
lustrous hair, the abundance of which astonished me; for whilst
watching I thought of the slight nut brown moss which was beginning
to show on me and cover the same parts of my body.
'How I love it,' said the Count, 'how beautiful and fresh it is, my pretty
Biby—dearest, open your tiny legs a little so that I may kiss it!'
Helene did as she was asked, her thighs unclosed themselves and
allowed me to see the little rosy cleft to which her lover glued his lips.
Helene seemed to be transported, she closed her eyes, incoherent
words escaped from her throat, whilst she lent herself to this strange
caress by a slight movement.
'Ah, I am dying!' she cried after a moment, 'ah!'
'What is it then, Bon Dieu?' I asked myself, the thought of a caress on
this part of the body never having come to me before. I could not see
how any one could get pleasure by it, yet I began to feel in the same
part ticklings that were of an enlightening nature.
M. de Vycabre raised himself and supported my aunt, whose
enervation seemed to be so excessive. This state of prostration did not
last long. Helene soon recovered her senses and, entwining her arms
around his neck, she kissed him ardently.
'Come my adored one,' she said, 'but how?'
'Turn around, dearest, and lean on this clumsy bit of furniture.'
9
To my great stupefaction Helene stood up and with rapid and feverish
movements undid the Count's trousers and tucked his shirt up under
his waistcoat. Then I saw an object so extraordinary to me that I was on
the point of crying out.
What could this unknown member be, the rosy head and length and
thickness of which seemed so monstrous to me?
Helene did not seem to share my fears, for she took it in her hand, the
unknown which had caused my fright—caressed it for a few minutes
and said:
'Come, Monsieur Mimi, come to your little friend, and above all, don't
come too quickly!'
On saying which my aunt drew up her dress from behind and
displayed to the Counts and to me, two little rondures of a dazzling
whiteness divided by a line of which I saw but a faint trace.
Then, bending down and placing her hands on the rustic wooden
bench, she presented her lover with an elegant
croup.
Rene, standing behind her, took in his hand this I-knew-not-what
which had so astonished me and commenced to introduce it between
the lips which I perceived.
Helene did not stir, she opened as wide as possible the part which
jutted out so. Little by little, I saw this dilate and as speedily absorb the
monstrosity. The operation was so complete that the stomach of M. de
Vycabre was glued against my aunt's buttocks.
Then there took place between them a come and go of combined
movements, incoherent talk and broken words.
10
'Ah, how I love you! You are penetrating me,' said Helene, 'ah, my love,
go softly—leave me alone for a moment, ah-ha—more quickly,
now—now—I'm dying—ah, ah!'
I looked at Rene, his eyes were half closed, his hands resting on my
aunt's hips, he seemed to be in a state of inexpressible beatitude.
'Stay, my angel,—my all!' he said, 'ah, how good it is to be happy, you
are happy—is it not so? I feel you are with me—enjoy well my
dearest!'
Both rested for a few minutes. My aunt as though swooning, did not
change her position, at last she turned her head slightly and giving her
lover a kiss, said to him:
'Now together, you will let me know when you are ready.'
Their motion recommenced. At the end of a few moments, the Count in
his turn exclaimed:
'Ah, dearest are you...—I can wait no longer!'
'Yes—yes—go—I follow you! I...'
Her voice trailed off into silence while M. de Vycabre seemed almost
to give way in his turn and fall on my aunt, who had to rest firmly on
her wrists in order to resist his weight.
Then he drew back a little and I saw his astonishing instrument again
as it withdrew from the retreat in which it had been so well cased and
feasted. But how changed it seemed to me—half as large and
reddened. In fact it was no longer the same at all.
The Count put his clothes straight, whilst my aunt raised herself and,
throwing her arms round her companion's neck, kissed him tenderly. A
calm took possession of them, but not of me. The warm breezes of the fir
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tree forest blew against me in vain and the morning songs of the birds
did not distract me in the least.
My brain whirled—my imagination heated to the utmost degree,
caused me to feel a portion of the pleasures of which I had been a
witness. I drew up my petticoats, my chemise, and with an
inexperienced hand I commenced to explore this tender part, thus
assuring myself that I was made like Helene, but without knowing yet
what relief this hand of mine could procure me.
I was soon to find out.
After many kisses Helene said to the Count:
'Listen, my dear, I have thought about it—you know that my rooms are
situated in the Chateau quite by themselves. My waiting maid is
away, no one could dream of our rendezvous, and we could pass some
adorable nights together.
'I will send Marcelle to Paris at once under some pretext or other and
every evening shall reunite us; so be on the look out, a sign will warn
you during the day as to the hour at which it will be safe to slip into my
room.
'I trust you to take the most minute precautions.'
It was then decided that M. de Vycabre should leave the little hut first
and take a stroll through the park in order to give my aunt a chance to
regain her chamber by the servant's staircase.
The Count disappeared and I remained squatted amongst my
shrubbery until he was out of sight.
As Madame de Torcol did not at once make her appearance I once
more glanced within.
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This dainty retreat amidst the trees was furnished with a wash stand
and a jug of water in a serviceable condition.
I saw Helene fill the hand basin, raise her petticoats and stand over it.
In the position I occupied, I could see her pretty little cleft open itself. It
seemed to me to be of vivid carnation but the sides, the interior and
even as far as the thick underwood which surrounded it, seemed to
have been plunged into a kind of glutinous fluid.
Helene began an ample ablution and I was preparing to steal gently
away when one of her movements stupefied me.
At the commencement of the operation, my aunt's hand carefully
refreshed the fatigued parts, but all at once she stopped. Her finger
placed itself on a slight eminence situated right in front of where she
began to rub, at first lightly and slowly, then with a kind of fury. At last
she seemed to experience the pleasurable sensations of the minute
before.
I had seen enough—I understood and was not long in vanishing—a
winding alley conducted me to the Chateau where, my brain on fire,
my bosom palpitating and with a staggering gait, I re-entered my
chamber with the firm intention of enjoying on my own accounts, the
last act of the pantomime that I had witnessed.
That wherein no partner was required.
Like one demented, I flung my hat on the floor, then shut and doublelocked
the door, threw myself on the bed, flung my clothes up to the
waist and struggled to use my hand in the way that I had seen Helene
use hers to gain satisfaction.
Several attempts proved ineffectual but at last, with Nature helping
me, the sensitive point revealed itself and the remainder became easy,
for my observation had been through.
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A delicious sensation seized me, I continued furiously and speedily,
and the ecstasy experienced became such that I actually lost
consciousness. When I returned to myself I found that I was still in the
same position, my hand was all wet with an unknown dew and it was
not for a considerable time that I was able to completely recover my
senses.
Breakfast time was at hand, I made a hasty toilette and went down
stairs.
My aunt, stretched out in an easy chair, was chatting with my
grandmother, beautiful and fresh and unflushed, as though she had
just arisen from an excellent night's rest.
I had need to assure myself that I had not dreamt it all and that Helene
had, like all virtuous folk seen the sun rise in her own private bedroom,
rather than as I knew, elsewhere.
As for myself, I felt that I looked ugly, my eyes were discoloured, my
cheeks were flushed and even grandmother noticed my agitation. I
assured her that I felt perfectly well and my aunt kissed me and we
began to talk about different subjects. When M. de Vycabre entered
the room all my self-possession had returned to me.
In the most natural manner he related to us how he had made an
excursion to a neighbouring village, and we sat down to the table.
Without appearing to do so, I did not let a single gesture from my aunt
or the Count escape me, but I was disappointed because not a sign or a
look disclosed their plan to me.
During dessert, my aunt said carelessly to my grandmother, 'I was so
thoughtless on leaving Paris, that I shall be obliged to send my maid to
fetch me a lot of things.'
'Oh, Mon Dieu, who will take her place here with you?'
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'Don't trouble yourself about that, I can attend to myself perfectly well
during so short an absence.'
The day passed without incident, M. de Vycabre mounted his horse
and took a long ride, while we sat by the side of the lake and did some
needlework.
Some neighbours called on us and grandmother kept them to dinner
and in the evenings we had some music. M. de Vycabre devoted
himself to whist with Madame de Pauvanne and was perfectly
reserved towards us.
I hastened to find myself alone, face to face with my thoughts.
Immediately eleven o'clock struck I went to bed, quickly dismissing
my maid, not doubting but that tomorrow night a serious rendezvous
would take place between M. de Vycabre and my aunt, so I ran over
the means at my disposal of spying on the impassioned scenes which I
was sure would be the consequence.
Knowing every nook and corner of the house, I began at once to draw
up a plan of campaign, of which the small suite of apartments occupied
by my aunt, became the centre of operations.
We both lodged in the middle story of the Chateau, but at the
opposite extremities of the same corridor. All the rooms on this story
opened on the same corridor. M. de Vycabre was also lodged on this
floor but in an angular wing.
My aunt's suite consisted of a bedroom, drawing-room and a little room
in which was fixed a bed for her waiting maid.
I recalled to mind a certain dressing-room occupying only a third of
the length of the room, which had formerly led to an alcove but had
afterwards been closed up by a strong partition wall.
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A bull's eye window let in at the top of the alcove had been merely
stopped up by a pierglass representing a pastoral scene, (in truth a bad
enough oil painting). I equally well remembered a kind of black
cabinet and my plan was complete. I went to sleep full of resolution
and hope for the coming day.
Marcelle set off the next morning as arranged.
M. de Vycabre and my aunt were more than ever reserved, however I
was able to catch what I wanted to know—the hour of the rendezvous.
After breakfast the Count leaned nonchalantly against the
mantelpiece and, while admiring a handsome clock, a superb ballshaped
article, he let his finger rest for a moment on the figures XI and
VI—I easily translated this mute language, half past eleven and when
my aunt replied with a slight motion of her eyes, I was certain.
We went to sit in the garden and M. de Vycabre who contrary to his
custom had remained at home, started to read to us. I then escaped on
some pretext and went up to the second floor.
There I drew a table to the door, placed a stool upon it and, without
pity for the artist's work, cut a hole in the pastoral scene and proved to
myself that I could occupy a front box to see what was going to take
place in my aunt's room. Finally, satisfied with my invention, I returned
to the others. Time seemed to me to drag its moments out to a mortal
length.
At last half-past ten struck, my grandmother retired and we followed
her example.
M. de Vycabre wished us good night and went to his room; my aunt
stopped with me for a few minutes longer and then conducted me to
my chamber where she left me after kissing me tenderly.
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I was not slow in undressing that night, you may be sure; and my maid
remarked that I must be in need of sleep to make such haste.
This was not altogether the motive which made me hasten the
departure of my maid, for scarcely was she out of my room when I
again put on my stockings and slippers and a dark-coloured wrapper
and waited.
At about a quarter past eleven I glided towards my scaffolding;
scrambled up to the top and installed myself as comfortably as I could,
then gazed as though I was at a theatre.
I saw very distinctly the white and fresh-looking bed resembling an
altar prepared for the sacrifice; a lamp on the table flooded it with
vivid light.
Helene was in her dressing room where I heard her making ablutions
of various kinds; for I heard the sound of a certain instrument which I
was sure she was putting up herself.
Her operations concluded, I saw her come into the room clad only in a
dressing gown; she went to the bed and turned down the clothes,
arranged the pillows and, moved the lamp so that it more nearly faced
it.
Divesting herself of her wrapper, she undid the fine cambric chemise
that still concealed her form and stepped up to the mirror. She admired
herself for a second, before letting the chemise drop with a gracious
movement of her shoulders till it rested on her haunches and slipped to
the floor. Then Helene, the pretty Helene, appeared completely naked
to my dazzled eyes.
One couldn't dream of anything more beautiful,—her breasts were
firm and high, round and luscious, tipped by two nipples of a vivid rose
while the dimpled curve of her hips and buttocks was mouth-watering
even to an admirer of her own sex.
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The base of her stomach, white and polished as ivory, displayed her
conspicuously luxurious ebony fleece, of which the length and density
made a rare sight. The contrast between this black triangle and her
lush white flesh gave Helene a particular stamp of lascivious
strangeness.
The charming woman again drew on her chemise and replaced her
dressing gown, tying the girdle negligently, then going to the door of
her room left it slightly ajar.
A moment afterward, with a thousand precautions, M. de Vycabre
entered and carefully locked the door behind him.
The Count, his bare feet in slippers, was attired in a summer morning
gown, beneath which I could see he wore only his shirt.
Helene made him sit down on a sofa and perched herself on his knee
and their mouths met in a long kiss, while they spoke of their marriage.
An obstacle, not yet surmounted, delayed the event but, according to
the Count, matters would be speedily concluded.
'Dear angel,' he said, 'you will never sufficiently know how grateful I
am to you for having had confidence in me and not making me wait for
my possession of you. I adore you, my dear Helene and I shall always
do so, always—do you hear?'
While he was saying this, the Count was opening the neck of my aunt's
wrapper and began kissing her breasts with frenzy.
My aunt, her head thrown back, quivered under his caress and, a
voluptuous shudder agitated her.
Rene, profiting by this movement, opened her wrapper still further but
this time at the bottom and, raising her chemise, he played for a
moment with her beautiful black fleece, which he seemed to delight
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in. It was the imitation of this activity had given me so much pleasure
the day before.
Helene on her side, brought to light the beautiful member on which
my eyes became fixed—it appeared to me to be even larger and
longer than the last time. My aunt stretched apart her thighs, opening
by this movement her little cleft, which did not seem to be longer than
my little finger.
'How,' said I to myself, 'could it be possible for an instrument of these
dimensions to penetrate entirely into so small a space?'
I came to the conclusion that the first time I had observed my aunt, she
had doubtless not taken the huge machine actually inside her but
placed it between her thighs; and that it was her rubbing it there that
had made him so happy. My error was to be of short duration.
During my reflections the two lovers had continued giving each other
the sweet caresses I have mentioned.
'Ah,' said Helene, 'my dear little husband, go on—ah, I am happy. How
beautiful Mimi is—how I am going to enjoy it—it is coming—eh —
oh—do it a little more, I am dying.'
A little moment of silence—Helene lay prostrate her body thrown
backwards, her head hidden in her lover's shoulders, her thighs apart,
she lay as though in a swoon, and M. de Vycabre contemplated her
with delight.
'Come now,' said Helene, recovering and suddenly raising herself '-
come and put it into me—I want to feel it entirely—come I am on
fire—I burn; come Monsieur Mimi, come and sprinkle me with your
good liquor.'
Helene untied her wrapper, threw it on the floor, as she did her
chemise, then stretched herself on the bed; Rene did the same with his
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morning gown and, before placing himself on Helene, he raised his
shirt clear up to his armpits. He was truly beautiful and his naked body
brought to my mind both Hercules and Apollo. His nude torso
straightened itself in all its splendour. His fiery instrument stood out
boldly from a thick underwood which set if off. He then got upon the
bed.
Helene had remained in the same position, with her legs a little apart
and bent upwards. Rene was now able to look her all over. I waited to
see her raise herself and turn her behind to her lover like the first time,
for I believed that it could not be done otherwise. But to my great
astonishment this proved not to be the case.
M. de Vycabre knelt over her. Helene raised her legs and placed them
across his loins in such a manner that nothing could escape my view. So
I distinctly saw Helene's hand seize his instrument and direct its head
to the centre of her little gap, which seemed to partly open to receive
it.
M. de Vycabre gave a vigorous thrust of the loins, Helene responded
with a similar one, and at least half of his machine penetrated into that
hungry little mouth, which stretched itself to swallow accommodate its
prize. Several successive movement finished the introduction and I saw
their two fleeces mingle greedily.
This time I knew what to believe. There was now nothing more than a
union of movements, sighs, inarticulate words, quiverings as if they had
become lunatics.
'Give it all to me,' said Helene. 'Ah, how good it is, move softly— we
will enjoy a long time.'
'Dearest, move and raise your thighs a little more so that I can enter
better, now do you feel it? Ah, what delight! I am dying!'
'Are you ready, my Rene—as for me—I—I—hurry yourself!'
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'I am—there it is coming—it is rising—now—I come, I am doing it!
Oh, ah! I am coming!'
Both remained motionless for a moment, then Rene raised himself and
I saw his dear instrument come out like the first time, red and tearstained.
Helene remained a long time without giving a sign of life then, raising
herself, she covered Rene with kisses and passed for an instant into her
dressing room.
I believed everything to be finished and thought of retiring, but a
secret presentment made me remain.
Helene returned and lay down again, put her arms round her lover and
a sweet conversation took place between them.
'My friend, how happy I have been! How much better it is when one is
quite relaxed. How well you know how to give pleasure.'
'Dearest, there doesn't exist in the whole world a more perfect woman
than yourself, and I want to eat you all up!' And, again lifting up
Helene's chemise, Rene covered her lovely body with kisses. Arriving
at the very centre of pleasure, he half opened it, bit it sweetly and
kissed it passionately.
'Stop, my friend,' said Helene,' 'stop, you will fatigue yourself!'
'No, dearest, look—see, it again asks permission to come to its little
companion.'
'Let us see, Monsieur Mimi—what! already returned to this fine state?
You are very beautiful and I love you. Come, I am weak, I spoil you,
come and imprison yourself once more there, there, place yourself like
that and don't budge!'
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'What are you going to do?'
'You know, my friend, that I love a change! Stay on your back and I will
be the one who is to do it.'
While saying this, my aunt straddled Rene, and taking M. Mimi in her
hand, she buried it in her up to the hilt; then, regulating her
movements, she squatted down on his body and remained there
impaled by his enormous pivot. She incited Rene, brought kisses to
him, showed him her adorable titties, while all the while making faces
at him.
'I am playing your part,' she said, 'you are my little wife—see how well
I do it.'
It was soon easy to see that the critical moment had arrived; the young
woman lay over her lover, who received her in his arms, and pressed
her onto him by holding her white buttocks with both hands.
The pleasure seized them again both together, then Helene
disengaged herself softly and again lay by her lover's side.
It was late and I was overwhelmed with emotion and fatigue. The
position I occupied was not comfortable but I did not wish to depart
before discovering whether the amorous couple would make another
rendezvous.
My patience was rewarded as I heard them fix the same hour for the
next night.
I then regained my room and went to bed exhausted. Sleep came
promptly to me, and I woke at seven o'clock the next morning,
perfectly rested. Then I went over in my mind what I had heard and
seen the night before.
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At once my imagination became inflamed, my breast heaved and fire
coursed through my veins. I lay on my back in the position my aunt
had taken, then I raised my chemise the way M. de Vycabre had done.
I fondled my breasts, whose buds had scarcely formed, and felt them
swell gently then, caressing my body, I arrived at the delicate part
which fascinated me the most.
It seemed to me that a slight change had taken place there. I found the
lips of this little retreat plumper, I felt the passage which—in my
aunt's case—had swallowed up the enormous machine, and to my
surprise I found only a little hole which my finger could not penetrate
without pain. Then I moved my finger a little higher and an
indescribable sensation invaded my whole being. I rubbed softly at
first, then more quickly, then slackened, then hastened, all the while
repeating my aunt's words:
'Ah, how good it is—I am going in, ah!' At last a nervous spasm seized
me and I was transported on a flood of immense happiness and all the
feelings remained with me, for I did not lose consciousness as I had the
other time.
When I had quite recovered, I withdrew my moist hand, then got up
and dressed myself, and went downstairs fresh and happy.
I will not relate the day's doings, which contained nothing of interest. I
was careful, however, to be present at the evening rendezvous, and had
arrived without accident at my observatory when Helene and her
lover met again.
The preliminaries were similar to those of the night before, but instead
of afterwards retiring to bed, Helene said:
'My friend, I have a caprice, let us do it like we did the other morning in
the pavilion. We are so much more comfortable and it will be so much
nicer!'
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While saying this, she took off her peignoir, drew her chemise up from
behind, placed her hands on a great cushion near the glazed wardrobe
and fixed herself there. In this position her head and arms were lower
than her buttocks which lifted up and defined by this ravishing pose,
plainly presented a heavenly path to pleasure.
Rene, too, made his preparations. He took off his dressing gown and
placed the lamp on the floor in such a way as to perfectly delicious
tableau—which was also reflected in the mirrored wardrobe. Then he
set himself to work.
'Ah, you see too much!' said my aunt.
'Could I see too much of so many beauties—look in the glass.'
'Ah, no, it is too much! Ah, oh, stop a little—oh, how beautiful you are
thus.'
'My adored one, how lovely you are—what admirable haunches—
what an adorable arse you have.'
'Ah, Rene, what a villainous word that is.'
'Don't be frightened, dearest, everything is permitted in love; these
words, so out of place elsewhere, give piquancy to its sweet mysteries.
You will also say them and then you will understand their charm.'
All the time he was speaking, he continued his motions. Helene held
still and spoke no word, but devoured the glass with her eyes. I was
stupefied to hear her say a moment afterwards:
'You love it well then?'
'What?'
'Well, eh, my...'
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'Your what?'
'Well, my... arse...'
'Oh, Helene, how bonny you are! Oh, yes, I love it. I adore your
beautiful bottom, I adore it!' 'Well, caress it then; it is all yours— my
bot—botbottom.'
In finishing these broken words she let herself go in complete
enjoyment; Rene who had also arrived at the sovereign pleasure,
clasped her tightly and almost swooned on her.
In this way they terminated the evening with this delicious caresses;
they could not make another rendezvous, fearing the waiting maid's
return from Paris, but agreed on certain signals. If the worst came to the
worst, they could meet at the pavilion in the park.
I regained my room, Marcelle returned the next day and the nocturnal
meetings could no longer be held. I applied myself to interpreting
every signal which could be exchanged between the lovers, but was
disappointed, as I could discover nothing.
Four days passed thus, I was in despair, continually directing my steps
towards the pavilion, only to find it empty.
On the afternoon of the fourth day, having entered the pavilion to
satisfy a slight need, I was surprised to see there a garden chair that
had evidently been brought from the house. I rightly concluded that
the next day would see some activity, so I was there in good time
before the actors could take their places.
They came as before, one after the other, with the usual precautions,
and carefully fastened themselves in. Helene at once seated herself in
the chair and said:
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'Truly, you did well to think of this article, for my position the other day
was not comfortable. But what are you doing down on your knees?'
'You know very well that I must say good morning to my little
companion.'
'Well, give it a kiss quickly and let us hurry—it is late. Seat yourself on
the chair and I will get astride you.'
Instantly M. de Vycabre let down his trousers and seated himself on
the chair; Helene lifted up her skirts, placed her legs astride her lover,
then seized his instrument and slowly introduced it into her channel of
love as she lowered her buttocks.
I was placed in the perfect spot to enjoy this spectacle from behind and
consequently did not lose a single detail. Very soon the enormous tool
completely disappeared inside Helene.
Now she raised her legs, placed her heels on the bars of the chair and
began to sink down and rise alternately.
The sighs and familiar words of love came quickly as their spirits
dissolved in mutual enjoyment.
I had promised myself that this time I would not simply remain a
spectator.
So, at the very moment when Helene introduced M. Mimi, I
commenced to caress myself, regulating my movements to theirs,
slackening or hastening just as they did. In consequence my sighs
arrived so exactly as to be mingled with theirs and were not noticed.
When all was finished, Helene raised herself and quitted her post. As
she dismounted, I saw M. Mimi's head emerge from his retreat and with
it a sufficiently large amount of liquor to make me wonder. It ran down
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her thighs to the ground—I was quite unable to account for it! The two
lovers then adjusted their clothing.
M. de Vycabre communicated to Helene two letters he had received.
The principal obstacle to their marriage had been removed, so it was
arranged that in three days M. de Vycabre should make his official
request for her hand. Then they agreed to meet in the pavilion two
days hence.
I returned to the Chateau very sad; at the prospect of returning to the
dull calm of my former life. Happily, the thought that I might soon be
married myself sustained my courage, and I certainly promised myself
sundry tastes of the illicit pleasures to which I had been a witness.
The next morning but one, I was in my hiding place. M. de Vycabre
arrived first, Helene came in a moment later, and I noticed a slight
cloud on her beautiful forehead; however, she threw herself into her
lover's arms. After some caresses he started to put his hand up under
her petticoats, but she stopped him, saying:
'No, my friend, it is impossible today, I am very much grieved, I assure
you, but you know—an obstacle—let us wait until they return.'
'Ah, how unhappy I am!'
'And I also.'
'Here, look, how he is longing for it!' And M. de Vycabre drew out of his
trousers his resplendent instrument and Helene took it into her hand,
saying:
'No, not without me.'
'But I pray you.'
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'All right—if you really wish it. One ought not to be selfish; I assure
you, it pains me to see such a good thing lost. Come, Monsieur Mimi,
but do not accustom yourself to doing it without your companion.'
While speaking, Helene had tucked up the sleeves of her wrapper; M.
de Vycabre had dropped his trousers round his feet and raised his shirt
out of her way.
'No,' said Helene, 'take off your trousers altogether. Since there is
nothing else for me, I want to enjoy all I can with my eyes.'
Rene did as she requested and abandoned himself to her.
She then placed herself just behind him, put her left arm round his
loins, grasped his upstanding limb in her right hand and began to
agitate it with a sweet movement of her wrist, alternately covering and
uncovering Mimi's head. This activity seemed to procure M. de
Vycabre an unheard of degree of pleasure.
'Ah, how well you do it,' said he, 'ah, my angel! Go gently, uncover it
well—a little more quickly—now stop, go on again, oh, ah—it is
coming,—more quickly yet—I am coming!—I die!'
He gave one or two thrusts of the loins. Helene, who was carefully
following his indications, grasped his instrument more tightly in her
hand and, to my great astonishment, I saw gush out in jerks of three feet
at least, a jet of something white, the emission of which seemed to
cause M. de Vycabre delirious happiness.
At the end of several minutes, Helene herself wiped the instrument
with her embroidered handkerchief, putting it back in its place and
saying:
'You are a wretch, you have enjoyed yourself without me and I am
longing for you!'
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I let them both retire, and when they were far enough away, I entered
the pavilion and closely examined the fresh traces of the ejaculation I
had so recently observed.
This sight inflamed my imagination, I threw up my clothes and, getting
astride, I placed my hand on the chair, my finger upraised and lowered
myself onto it. I found my little opening and, imitating Helene's
movements, I began stretching myself to the utmost, raising and
lowering my behind. I imagined myself as receiving epic proportions of
the real instrument.
A sharp pain did not stop me and I redoubled my efforts till nearly half
of my finger entered my grotto.
I then repeated Helene's words: 'I melt! I am doing it! My arse!'... a spasm
seized me and I writhed with pleasure.
My hand and the chair both showed marks of my enjoyment and I
hastened to erase them before I returned to the Chateau.
During the day, M. de Vycabre had a conference with my
grandmother and formally demanded my aunt's hand; they arranged
the details and he set off for Paris to rush though the preliminaries.
It was decided that Helene should still remain with us for some days. I
was to attend the marriage as her bridesmaid, so she took me away
with her.
The wedding was celebrated with great style and for the first time in
my life I attended a grand ball, at which, I can say without vanity, I was
a veritable success.
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I should have dearly loved to witness the bedding of the newly
married couple, but unhappily my observatory was not in that house,
and I had to resign myself to a solitary association in their pleasures.
Three days later, M. de Vycabre brought me back to my grandmother
and set off with his wife to Italy.
After the departure of the newly married couple, I fell back into the
monotony of my former existence with my senses wakened and the
knowledge of some pleasures that my ardent nature rendered
necessary to me.
To me M. de Vycabre had become the beau ideal of a husband.
The pavilion in the park retain some strong memories for me, and I
often visited it. I had left the chair there and it served as the throne for
my solitary pleasures.
These means of solace were not only necessary but at times
indispensable, for I was often taken with veritable amorous furies, my
eyes clouded, my ears rang, my legs faltered under me, and just by
closing my thighs one against the other, I agitated that charming spot
which makes us women become moist.
In those moments no resistance was possible, I could not help myself.
My finger became a past master and, after I had thoroughly pleasured
myself, I felt a calm and delicious freshness circulate through me and I
am convinced that without this, I should have had some serious illness.
Happily, I did not abuse this practice and my health was but the better
for it.
I thus reached my eighteenth year. Though I say it myself I had
become truly beautiful.
I was above middle-height, my hair abundant and of a lovely dark
chestnut colour, my eyes brown, very sparkling and provided with
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long lashes. My mouth was a little large and extremely sensual but was
set off with pretty teeth; a black beauty spot on the right side of my
upper lip added to my charms. I had admirable shoulders, breasts full,
firm and well placed, a figure supple and slender and buttocks
voluminous but well proportioned. My mound of Venus was finely
shaped and without having the rare fleece of my aunt, I was well
provided in this matter. By a singular peculiarity, this pretty fur was
silky and very short.
How many times, dear Lucien, have you placed me in a manner to
enjoy this view! What caresses! What kisses! But we must not
anticipate. Let us add, to finish this portrait that I had firm hands and
very elegant feet. All this made of me a morsel fit for a king.
My grandmother at this time felt that her end was near and she was
concerned for my future so, without letting me know, she sought a
husband for me.
One day an old friend of hers visited and made a proposal to her which
seemed to crown her hopes and dearest desires.
Here it is.
M. de Cornylle was presented to us. He was twenty-eight years of age,
had much distinction of manners, a handsome shape, and a well-made
figure.
His family was of the old aristocracy and his large fortune made him
an excellent match. He had not as manly an air as M. de Vycabre, but
such as he was, he greatly pleased me and I gave him my heart from
the very first day.
As for him, immediately he perceived me he was bewitched. We were
both of one mind; accordingly two months later we were married.
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We were to due to pass some time at my grandmother's and afterwards
go to Paris, where my husband had an employment.
Helene and her husband came to assist me at my marriage.
She was, as always, pretty and happy; I gave her my little confidences
and told her that I was disposed to love my husband with all my heart,
and that but one thing chagrined me and that was that I found him a
little cold and reserved, although always affectionate and gallant.
Helene began to laugh and assured me that all this would be speedily
changed.
The great day arrived—Madame Vycabre took the place of another
and attired me herself.
As the evening arrived I was consumed with desire—and also with
inexpressible fear; the act I was about to accomplish, although well
known to me in theory, gave me terrible apprehension.
At last, the evening ended and Helene carried me off to the nuptial
chamber!
It was her own! It was on this bed that I had seen her so well feasted,
that I was become a fully fledged woman.
Helene put me to bed and, seating herself close to me, proceeded to
instruct me in matters of which she thought I would be profoundly
ignorant. With sensitivity and tact, she explained the whole matter to
me very clearly. Then she kissed me, recommended that I comply with
all my husband's desires, wished me courage and withdrew.
An instant afterward M. de Cornylle entered, clad in a dressing gown.
He came to the bed, kissed me with ardour, said some very affectionate
things to me, took off his garment and came into bed.
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Charles, for that was his name, pressed me in his arms; the contact of his
nude limbs against mine made me thrill. He kissed me sweetly, at the
same time telling me not to be afraid, and drew still closer to me. I was
now trembling all over—I dared not speak and yet I desired—he
whispered to me:
'Would you like to have a little baby?' And at the same time his right
knee insinuated itself between my thighs and separated them. I
resisted at first, then yielded a little, then further. Speedily Charles
drew closer. I now felt the point of the object I so much desired.
The first contact had on me the effect of gunpowder; all the heat of my
temperament rushed to the spot about to be attacked and I almost
came! But Charles aimed badly, either too high or too low—I was
breathless, on fire, yet I dared not guide his movements!
At last I felt him at the right spot, at the entrance. He thrust vigorously,
a keen pain seized me, I gave a start and drew back.
Disconcerted, Charles asked my pardon and implored me to have a
little courage. He resumed his place. I no longer budged, and taking a
little more advantageous position, I determined to suffer anything to
finish it more
quickly.
It seemed to me that Charles did not manage with much virility and I
felt that there was a great difference in the size of the instrument that
was now perforating me and that of M. de Vycabre. Moreover, he did
not speak to me, did not say any of those things overheard by me, and
which I believed could not be separated from the operation we were
performing.
At last Charles seemed to gather a little more strength and gave a
solid thrust—I imitated him, at the same time stiffening myself. The
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pain caused me to cry out, but I had the satisfaction of feeling myself
penetrated, for his entire instrument was now in me.
For a moment my husband continued his movement back and forth,
then he quivered, uttered several sighs and remaining motionless. I
now felt the warm liquor flood me and diminish a little the roasting
pain that was devouring me.
Charles withdrew and stretched himself at my side, visibly fatigued.
While as for me, despite my desires and imagination I had not
experienced any pleasure. I was not astonished at this as Helene had
already warned me that it would be so.
Charles kissed me and then wished me good night, turned his back on
me and promptly went to sleep.
I remained very much astonished and embarrassed. I was willing to
recommence and, in spite of my pain, I was quite ready to do so. At last
I made up my mind it was no use in waiting so I went to sleep in my
turn.
I awoke late the next morning; much to my surprise, I was alone.
Suddenly Charles came out of the dressing room and approached me.
He was already dressed. He kissed me on the forehead, said some
affectionate words to me, enquired whether I had slept well, but all
was cold.
My heart, ready to fly towards him, stood still; it seemed to me that he
should have stayed with me till I woke in order to press me in his arms,
to speak to me of love and happiness—in short to recommence his
caresses of the evening before.
I felt that I should have responded to his transports and that no
apprehension of pain would have restrained me from receiving him. In
short, a doubt as to my future tightened in my breast. This was not what
I had dreamt of.
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Charles quitted the room saying that he would leave me to dress
myself. I did not even think of doing so and buried myself in sad
reflections. A loving voice called me and Helene ran in to kiss me.
I flung my arms around her neck, embraced her and burst into tears.
'What is it then? Bon Dieu! dear child!' she said to me.
In truth I should have been much embarrassed to reply; it would have
been impossible for me to articulate my grief. This was not my dream of
love and I felt that the ardent fire that burned within me would not
find the release it so urgently sought.
Helene thought that I was simply experiencing a nervous moment and
she exerted herself to calm me by joking with me, soon the natural
gaiety of my character came to the surface, I arose and plunged into
the bath that my maid had drawn for me.
The day passed pleasantly; everybody around me was happy and my
husband seemed to be enchanted. He was gallant and as tender as his
nature allowed him to be, this put me at my ease and I returned his
caresses less timidly.
The night came and he carried me off to bed early, less constrained
himself than the night before. He pressed me in his arms and told me
that he loved me and kissed me very tenderly. I ventured to say to him
that I also loved him and I gave him a kiss that electrified him, for I felt
something hard pressing against my thigh that seemed to promise me
some satisfaction.
As on the evening before, he bent to my ear and whispered:
'Do you want us to repeat what we did last night?
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I did not reply but could not prevent myself from opening my thighs
and furtively drawing up my chemise. He placed himself on me. I put
my arms around his neck, waiting for the moment impatiently.
I speedily felt the head of his instrument and I profited by his agitation
to introduce it as far as possible in me. A lively enough pain was still
produced but I did not stop there, pleasure and the fire that raced
through my veins made me forget the discomfort. I already felt the
forerunners of enjoyment and I put a check on myself in order not to
speak—to say what I really felt.
I now understood perfectly the words of my aunt, but the silence of
Charles, who seemed concentrated entirely on himself, prevented my
giving vent to my feelings.
Charles continued his movements and kissed me, but he did not seem
to be transported out of himself as I could have wished.
However I was now very happy, it seemed to me that I was melting
away. I could not prevent myself from giving a thrust of the loins and
uttering an exclamation. Now I remained motionless—I enjoyed even
losing consciousness—Charles stopped, seemingly astonished at my
transports; I restrained myself and he went on again.
What more shall I say? He was a long time with this sweet business,
and I shed the sweet celestial dew four times! At last I felt him tremble,
and sigh and a jet of flame inundated me inside.
We both lay still. I was exalted and ready to begin again; he was
broken and, desiring only slumber, slept!
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PART TWO
On awakening, the next morning, I found myself alone. I was not
displeased and thought over the whole scene of the night before.
I was curious to inspect myself so, sitting on a pillow, my legs well
apart, I examined my gaping interior. I found that my entire finger
penetrated it with ease. This inspection amused me and would have
certainly produced results had not a discreet knock on the door made
me hasten to cover myself up, and I resumed a decent position.
My visitor was Helene. She found me fresh and gay and, after kissing
me, we chatted like two sisters while I dressed.
My pretty aunt treated me as a woman and invited my confidences
which I did not refuse her. When I told her that I had spent four times,
while Charles had delivered himself of a single emission, she made an
impatient movement; it was very evident that the paucity of my
husband's virile force compared with my own, surprised her.
The day passed; my husband, a keen sportsman, went shooting game
and, for my part, I went out walking with Helene. Dinner united us and,
in the evening, we played music until it was time to retire.
This was the third night of our married life. Ah, what a difference from
the two preceding ones! Charles put a frightful silk handkerchief
around his head, spoke of our approaching departure and of our
homecoming, but did not say one word of love, or give me any caresses.
He kissed me coldly, turned over and went to sleep.
I awoke early the next morning and was seized with a desire to
examine the male instrument which I had already felt twice and
which I suspected was very different from that of M. de Vycabre.
Circumstances favoured me, it was warm, Charles had thrown back
the sheet and by good luck his shirt was somewhat rucked up. I pushed
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the sheet still further down and then, with infinite care, moved so as to
see that sorrowful tool that was my only source of consolation.
In truth what a difference, there was from that of M. de Vycabre—
little, stunted—in a wrinkled skin, scarcely could one perceive the
presence of its flabby head reposing on his thigh; and from that
moment on I believe our fate was fixed.
Charles made a movement, I hastened to turn round and pretended to
be asleep. He got out of bed first, as usual.
Thus the period of our sojourn with my grandmother approached its
end and we began our proper married life together. Certainly I was not
happy, though my husband loved me as much as his cold nature would
permit. My beauty enchanted him and he refused me nothing that I
could wish for, but all this did not suffice me. It was not this that I had
dreamt of. I desired an ardent love, voluptuous and lascivious, for
which I was ideally suited, but I saw before me a gentle, monotonous
life—probably childless, and far too bloodless for one of my
temperament.
Charles gave himself to me once or twice a week, always with the
same helpless reserve. He only kissed me on my cheeks and
forehead—my breasts so firm and fresh, never received his caresses; his
hands seemed to fly away from the charming spot between my thighs
that would have so eagerly welcomed his attentions. As for me, I did
not dare to touch him, as I was sure that I would have been repulsed.
We had been married two years. I was now twenty years of age, my
temperament had become more passionate in every way, while that of
my husband seemed to have lost some of its force; I had not had a child,
consequently nothing had changed my ideas.
By now my grandmother was dead and we lived in Paris. My husband's
position obliged him to often beg leave of absence for several days at a
time which, moreover, accorded with his sporting tastes.
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I was thus often left alone and, in spite of my passion for music, which I
had cultivated with some measure of success, my head often grew
disordered, and my over-excited senses presented to me nothing but
scenes of love and delirium.
What nights I have passed when alone! I have instinctively writhed
myself into the most lascivious positions, that you could possibly
imagine.
My finger was no longer enough to satisfy my desires. I pressed my
bolster and entwined my arms about it, clasping it in my arms as well
as though it could bring me joy. I rubbed myself furiously against it
and arrived at a degree of relative enjoyment but this did not suffice
except to still further increase my longings.
I changed postures, placing myself astride it; I rubbed myself anew
until the wellsprings of pleasure, swollen by this stimulant, finally
opened themselves and procured me some relief.
These nervous excitements gave me hallucinations, the nature of
which were shaped by my frenetic state; my sweet and gay character
became capricious. For a time I resisted but finally, I succumbed; was I
then very culpable?
I often saw Madame D....the wife of the Chief Magistrate of the town.
She was a little blonde who had once been very beautiful but she was
already on the turn. I believed that she had had many adventures in
her youth.
One day, having gone to make a call on her, she informed me that M.
Formatey had come to take command of the garrison. She said he was a
young officer who had been much and well spoken of, who had fought
with great distinction, and had been promoted very rapidly until he
held the commission of Lieutenant Colonel; that he was about thirtysix
years old and unmarried.
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Madame told me that she had invited him to dinner, and she then
invited my husband and myself for the same day. Was it a
presentiment that I had? I do not know, but I returned home very
thoughtful, even feeling a spark of jealousy towards Madame D...
The dinner took place three days later; I had made, I must admit it, a
most ravishing toilette.
We entered the room and found M. Formatey there before us; in a
moment I had taken stock of him. He was a tall, vigorous and strapping
fellow, with a free and open physiognomy and distinguished manners.
He was introduced and his sweet and charming voice vibrated within
my heart.
I felt a chill, then the blood all rushed to my head. Oh, I was captured
all right! I did not even seek to fight the feelings that invaded my
entire being.
We sat down to dinner, which was very lively and M. Formatey shone
by his quick wit. He was at the right of Madame D... who flirted with
him. I could have slain her.
After dinner he approached me and begged my permission to call,
then chatted with my husband who was pleased greatly with him.
Madame D... went to the piano and played a waltz. Monsieur D... said
that I waltzed well and solicited me to take a turn with him but, he
being somewhat elderly and somewhat feeble, fatigue speedily told
on him and M. Formatey presented himself to fill his place.
When his arm encircled my waist, I was seized with a nervous
movement which did not escape him, and I very imprudently allowed
myself to be carried away by the delicious sensation.
M. Formatey boldly profited by it and, while turning the corner of the
room, he found a means to press me so closely to him that I felt for an
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instant against my stomach an object so hard and stiff, that I thought I
should faint. Ah, this waltz was all that was needed to complete my
defeat!
All too speedily the happy evening came to an end. On returning
home, I undressed myself promptly, said good night to my husband
and, under pretext of being tired, lay down with my buttocks turned
toward Charles.
As it chanced, a caprice took him, and I felt him gently raise my
chemise. Then, pressing me towards himself, he sought to put it into me
from behind. For a moment I was disinclined but, within a moment, my
temperament got the upper hand and I lent myself to his desires. He,
however, fumbled at me clumsily and failed to gain an entry.
I lost my patience and, hurling the clothes down to the foot of the bed, I
seized his reluctant dart and buried it within me to the hilt.
At this moment I scarcely thought of poor Charles, in my imagination
Formatey had taken his place. I imagined that it was he who was
moving behind me and in my mind I addressed to him everything that I
could have wished to say if he had really been there.
Three times my amorous dew was shed for him and him alone, as the
result of my thoughts my husband profited without knowing it, and
behaved a little better than usual refreshing me with a more abundant
shower of moisture.
When he withdrew I feared that, with his usual habitual ridiculous
reserve, he would be displeased with the spontaneous impulse which
had made me seize and imprison his instrument myself. On the
contrary he appeared to take it kindly and I remembered it for the
future.
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The next day, when M. Formatey called to pay us a visit, we were out. I
was really chagrined to find his card. The day after he called again,
this eagerness pleased me very much, we received him in our best style
and pressed him to come often.
It seemed to me that he regarded me with a particular sentiment and I
was as happy as could be.
A tender intimacy was not slow in establishing itself between us and
my love grew greater day by day. I knew that my adored Formatey
already shared it. Up to now he had said nothing, but I was sure of it.
What woman ever deceived herself in this?
We never found ourselves alone: I ardently desired, but at the same
time dreaded, this moment. I did not wish to deliver myself up to him
entirely at the first encounter yet I felt that it would be impossible to
resist for a single moment. I made a resolution to know him better but,
unhappily, my strength deserted me completely as soon as I saw him.
In such a state how could I have resisted his attack?
One day he called about three o'clock in the afternoon. My husband
was absent, but I had a very tiresome lady visitor who could not make
up her mind to go.
I saw my dear Formatey suffering as he waited and, not being able to
decently remain any longer, at last he started to leave, darting at me a
glance that I could not resist. I said to him:
'Did not my husband promise you a book?'
'Yes, Madame. And I had hoped to get it today.'
'If you will wait. I will go and get it for you.'
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'Will you excuse me, Madame?' I said to my eternal visitor, 'will you
permit me to leave you alone for a moment?'
She replied, 'Oh, yes, willingly!'
We were in my little room. Formatey, who understood my little ruse,
went out and waited for me in the next room, where I joined him with
some book or other in my hand.
In an instant he declared his love for me. What did he say? What did I
reply to him?
I know nothing, I remember nothing. I conducted him to the entrance
door, fearing that someone would hear him; there was a double door
between where we stood and a little ante-chamber where the servant
was sitting.
M. Formatey seized me in his arms, half opened my lips and imprinted a
kiss, a long kiss of fire, a kiss which re-echoed through my entire being
and arrested the protest which I should have uttered in spite of myself.
At the same instant, his eager hand had raised my petticoats and his
finger knowledgeably caressed my burning cleft which left, quick as
lightning, a palpable mark of its pleasure on his invading hand.
'Go—go—go! Do leave me!' I implored in a stifled voice. 'Go! go! —
Tomorrow, three o'clock!' And I fled in a state that I can hardly
describe.
Happily, the lady visiting me was very near-sighted and did not
perceive my disorder.
I will not attempt to relate my impressions until the next afternoon —
the only thing that I can recall is that I was determined.
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Fortunately my husband had to be away, so I arranged things in such a
manner that my servants were sent on errands; I made a fresh toilette
and then waited. My dear Formatey arrived, I opened the door for him
myself, and led him into my boudoir.
We seated ourselves, both sufficiently embarrassed, and he very
respectfully begged my pardon for what he had done the day before,
telling me that he had not been his master at the moment when the
delicious movement had seized him; and that his love for me was such
that he would die if he could not have me.
I did not know what to reply, my heart was so full—he took my hand
and kissed it. I arose, trembling, our mouths met, and, I confess, I no
longer made any resistance! I had not the strength. I tasted unknown
happiness, I felt him draw me close. What should we do?
There was nothing in my boudoir but an uncomfortable settee, and
some common chairs.
All the time holding me in his arms, Formatey seated himself upon a
chair in such a manner that I found myself standing in front of him and
bending over his body.
I felt one of his arms leave my waist and speedily my clothes were
lifted up in front as my handsome lover sought to pass his knees
between my legs.
'Oh, not that!' I said between spasms. 'No, I pray you—not that, have
pity!'
Without taking any notice of my feeble protestations of
expiring modesty, Formatey made efforts to bend me in
such a way that I should be astride of him; instinctively,
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although desiring it all the time, I resisted, refusing to bend
- thus we exhausted ourselves.
At last, having lowered my eyes a little, I saw a spectacle which at
once terminated the struggle. My conqueror had already produced his
instrument quite ready for the fray; its haughty and rubicund head
raised itself arrogantly—its length and thickness truly exceptional,
rendering it far superior even to that of M. de Vycabre.
At this sight I no longer had the strength or desire to resist. My thighs
opened themselves of their own accord, I let myself sink whilst hiding
my head on my lover's shoulder, and I abandoned myself to him,
opening myself as wide as possible, desiring yet fearing the entrance of
so fine a guest.
I speedily felt the head between the lips of my grotto which, following
the puny tool of my husband, was not used to such a treat. I made a
movement to aid him and had scarcely introduced the point, when a
burning jet of amorous liquor covered my thighs and stomach.
The prolonged waiting and the excitement had caused the precious
dew to gush forth much too quickly for me and so I was not able to
enjoy as I had hoped.
I could not prevent myself from letting my disappointment be seen, but
my lover, covering me with kisses, told me that he needed but to wait
for an instant and that I should speedily be more content with him.
We sat down on the settee and, entwined in each other's arm, we spoke
to the full of our love and happiness. We had loved each other at the
first sight it seemed and so had yielded to an irresistible passion.
At the end of several minutes, I saw that my lover was ready to
recommence and I asked myself how we were going to do it!
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I did not wish to try again the posture that had failed us so dismally. I
noticed that Formatey was also looking about him; then I had an idea, I
got up, smiling at him, and urged him to do the same.
I stepped back and he pursued me; at last I leaned forward
nonchalantly against the mantelpiece and presented to him my
behind my croup, which I made undulate with a cat-like movement, at
the same time Hooked back at him, darting him a provocative glance.
Ah, I was understood. Formatey sprang towards me and gave me a kiss,
while saying:
'Thanks!' Then he placed himself behind me and he raised my
petticoats up over my loins.
On perceiving my rounded and quivering posterior, he uttered a cry of
admiration. I was waiting, but was not expecting the homage which I
received.
The great fool threw himself on his knees; then, after covering my
buttocks with kisses, he opened them below and I felt lips and tongue!
In my turn I uttered a cry and nearly swooned away.
Formatey raised himself and commenced to put inside me his priapus,
his enormous priapus. Despite our united efforts, this was not easy, so
he withdrew and, putting a little saliva on it, I then speedily felt myself
penetrated—filled. I was in a state of inexpressible ecstasy.
Bending over me, my lover glued his lips to mine, which I made
possible by bending my head. His tongue caressed mine and I lost
control of my senses. As the supreme moment arrived I became crazed
with passion and cried out in broken and unfinished words of love.
Formatey restrained himself and beamed at my happiness. He allowed
me to calm down and then I felt his sweet movements commence again.
Ah, how well he knew how to give pleasure and even to double it by a
thousand delicious shades! Oh, this first lesson, I can feel it yet!
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'Dear Angel!' he said, 'express your feelings, it is good to utter those
sweet confidences, when we become one person as we are at this
moment.'
Oh, how happy this speech made me. I who had always desired to utter
those words with which my ears had been so delicately struck at
Pauvanne, when a similar scene had been enacted by my aunt and her
lover. I did not need another invitation.
'I am coming—again—I say again,—finish me! I am co-m-ing! Ah! Ah!'
'My adored one, I am coming also! Ah—oh—here I come!'
Formatey gave a vigorous thrust of the loins and sank upon me—I felt
his emissions and almost lost consciousness again.
How was it that I could stand his embrace? Nothing of what I had
imagined on seeing my aunt, could approach this reality. I was
swooning, my head between my hands, my bosom palpitating,
incapable of making another movement.
As Formatey withdrew from me, I was still coming, I had been coming
all the time! In spite of myself, I remained uncovered up to the waist,
trembling, mechanically continuing to undulate my buttocks which
caused the overflow of ambrosia to fall to the ground.
My lover had pity on me. After rapidly putting himself to rights, he
lowered my petticoats and, taking me in his arms, he sat me beside
himself on the settee.
For a moment my mind wandered, he calmed me, his sweet voice
brought me to my senses a little. I begged him to leave me to myself for
a time and he retired.
I now took stock of myself. I was in an incredible state of disorder. I had
to change my linen, my chemise and stockings were not only stained
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with the amorous liquor but smeared with drops of blood, for it was not
with impunity that I had consorted with a member of that size.
When I regained something of a semblance of order, in ideas as well as
toilette, I flung myself on my bed and slept profoundly. My husband
would not return till late in the evening and I woke up about seven
o'clock, fresh and strong as I had not felt for some time.
I gave way to reflection. I had been carried away by an irresistible
sentiment and, above all, by a natural need, as necessary for my
nourishment as food.
It was certainly not that I was vicious; I loved my husband as a friend,
as the companion of my existence, and if he had the necessary virile
forces which were so indispensable to me, or even if he had sought to
augment them with skilful caresses, I should never have dreamt of
being unfaithful to him. I resolved to save him from all pain and I have
fully succeeded—he had never had the slightest suspicion.
This resolution demanded much skill. The circle of acquaintances with
which I was surrounded, were exceedingly active in scandalmongering
and I had to take excessive precautions to conceal my
liaison.
I warned my lover and knew that I could count on his honour, and he
did everything on his part to preserve my reputation.
Several days passed without our seeing each other; I suffered much
from this and he as much as I. A gesture, a look while walking or in
company with others was all that we had for consolation for eight long
days.
At last Formatey could hold out no longer. He came to pay us a visit;
my husband was at home. We chatted in a friendly manner, someone
else came to call, he took his leave and my husband went to the door
with him and returned to the room with our new visitor.
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I do not know what instinct warned me that Formatey had not gone out
of the house, but I excused myself as the visitor was talking business
with my husband, and I went into the ante-chamber.
I had not deceived myself. Formatey had not left; seeing that there was
no servant in sight, he was still standing inside the entrance.
On seeing me, he threw himself upon me, pressing me in his arms with
violent passion.
'Dear Angel, how I am suffering and how long a time it has been.'
'And I have found it so, too!' I replied.
We were still standing between the doors and before I had time to
think, our lips were glued together, my clothes were pulled up to the
waist, his finger had penetrated into my burning cave which opened
itself under his pressure and, my hand had seized his dear member.
What more can I say? Several moments passed and I gasped for breath,
withdrawing my hand to find it entirely bathed in a warm and
abundant liquor.
We made our escape in opposite directions.
Several days then passed and we were unable to join one another, then
at last a happy moment of liberty arrived and we had an hour to
ourselves.
Ah, how we profited by it! My lover appeared in my little room. I flew
to meet him, I ate him up with kisses and caresses.
'Let us do it quickly!' We both exclaimed in a single breath, 'let us
profit by this chance for happiness.'
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I tore myself from his arms, flung up my skirts from behind and, placing
myself on my knees on the settee, presented my buttocks to him. I
swooned with pleasure from the fury of his consequent attack.
Then we seated ourselves but my lover was not contented and, in spite
of my fears, I could not stop him. He placed himself on his knees
between my legs, which he had me open widely; I took into my hand
his vigorous firebrand which had already regained all its hardness, I
caressed it a moment, then I buried it in myself gradually.
When the arrow had completely disappeared within its quiver,
Formatey bent over me, raised my legs on his arms, threw me
backwards and then thrust so energetically that a second ejaculation
soon exploded within me.
My aim is not to relate day by day all that took place at our various
meetings. I will merely confine myself to describing the most stirring
doings of this adorable liaison, which I could have wished to last
forever.
My lover knew how to vary the pleasure without ever arriving at
satiety; he found a singular voluptuousness in teaching me the arts of
enjoying, and he had in me the most docile of pupils.
He taught me the real names of things, making me say them many
times, but only on the frenzy of passion. He only employed them
himself in the supreme transports; he claimed, and rightly, that it was a
spice of high taste, which one should not abuse, for fear that it would
lose all its flavour.
It will doubtless come to me to forget myself some time in sweet
remembrances, but after all, what does it matter?
What refined caresses, what lascivious positions he was able to teach
me! What caprices, what childishnesses on both sides were realized as
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soon as thought of! I made much progress under so good a master, that I
eventually surpassed him.
I greatly delighted in changing the method thus sometimes, when
ridden from behind which was one of his favourite postures, I would
unhorse my rider and fly to the end of the room. There I would place
myself on a chair, my legs in the air, presenting my open pussy.
Scarcely had my lover penetrated me than I would, in a new caprice,
seat myself on top of him, burying his tool to the utmost within me.
My dear Mimi! It was thus that I ordinarily called my splendid
champion who gave me so much pleasure and which had now become
a passion to me. I could never tire of admiring its length, its thickness,
its marvelous stiffness: I played with it, I ate it up, I pumped it, caressed
it in a thousand ways. I rubbed it against my titties, shut it up between
them by pressing them together with both hands and often, when
closed in this voluptuous channel, there it would shed its dew.
My lover returned all my caresses with interest, my pussy was his god,
his idol. He assured me that no woman ever possessed one more
beautiful than mine—he half opened it, he tickled it in a thousand
ways. His greatest happiness consisted of putting his lips to it to suck it,
to extract from it (so to speak) the quintessence of voluptuousness by
titillations of the tongue which nearly drove me mad.
I had acquired such taste for practice that we seldom had a rendezvous
without Formatey pleasuring me this way. I would throw myself down
on a large sofa chair placed in my boudoir for just that purpose. There I
would arrange myself with legs stretched out and raised on the arms of
the chair.
My lover would fall on his knees in front of me, and perform his
delicious minette—it was thus that he called this way of making love.
When I began to writhe in paroxysms of pleasure, he would enter me
and locked in each other's arms, we would enjoy each other to the
point of madness.
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Sometimes I would place myself on my knees on the settee and my
lover would glue his face between my buttocks and pleasure me with
his mouth from the rear—an activity which filled us both with
transports of joy.
One day, after a long separation, my dear Formatey was at last able to
see me alone! Alas! A monthly obstacle rendered our habitual
pleasures impossible. I saw the pain on his face as he looked at my
hand supplicatingly.
Certainly I was quite disposed to accord him that means of solace, in
fact I had already had it in mind to do so, when a foolish idea popped
into my head and I recalled the last scene between M. de Vycabre and
my aunt in the park.
The conditions were identical and I wished to reproduce it in all this
details. I easily prevailed upon Formatey to rise, placed him as I
wanted and proceeded to manipulate his big tool in the same fashion
as Helene had. I also managed to make my lover say the same words
that M. de Vycabre had uttered on that memorable occasion.
At last he came and his dew gushed freely, the last pearls of which I
collected in my handkerchief.
When it was finished I could not prevent myself from laughing and he
asked my reasons. To this I replied thoughtlessly:
'Nothing, I just remembered something!'
At these words I saw his face darken and I quickly understood my
mistake and the suspicions that I had raised in his mind against me.
Not wishing to give him even the shadow of anxiety, I made him sit
beside me and told him all that had happened before my marriage.
This recital amused him greatly and he had me go into great detail.
When I told him how I had managed to get satisfaction for myself, he
cried:
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'Ah, dearest, what would I not have given to have seen you in your turn
tickle your delicious little clitoris.'
He continued asking me a lot of questions about my solitary customs
and I even finished by telling him that, the day of our meeting at
Madame D...'s house, I was so full of the remembrance of him that in the
night I had done it for Charles but had thought only of HIM.
'Ah, indeed!' he replied to me, 'this is truly curious! Confidence for
confidence, my dear angle, that very same evening and probably at
the very same hour, we exchanged our souls in mutual enjoyment!'
'Is that true?'
'Listen, I returned home already more than half captivated by you; I
had in fact loved you on seeing you; I had not yet had the happiness of
enjoying your body but I regarded it as the aim of all my future efforts.
'I went to bed and thought only of you. I was in a state of—well, you
can imagine—I extinguished my light and in my mind I covered your
imaginary form with kisses of a delightful but not entirely satisfying
sort. Then I did what you did, and the pleasure was such that I am now
convinced that our discharges took place at the very same moment.'
'How can men then tickle themselves. Do they do it as we do?'
'Certainly we do; why should this natural means of relief be denied us?
That which your pretty hand does, mine can do likewise.'
'Oh, how I would like to see that!'
'What, you want to...?'
'Yes, I want you to show me how to do it.'
'But you well know I do it just like you.'
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'Well yes, but I pray you, give me this pleasure.'
While saying this, I uncovered the head of his instrument which, as a
result of our talk, had regained its usual fine condition. I took his hand
and placed it upon it.
'Now you are being silly.'
'No, sir, not at all, I wish it—do it quickly, and do it to the end, or I shall
know that you do not love me any more.'
My lover did not know how to refuse me. After some hesitation he said:
'Oh very well, I agree but it is on the condition that as soon as it is
possible, you will in your turn give me a demonstration of your
pleasures when a young girl.'
'Oh, as to that, I will do it willingly, but now please go on.'
He soon did as I wished and, bending over him, I followed his
movements one after the other with a singular sentiment to think of his
pleasure and my curiosity.
Soon I had pity on him, I undid my corsage, and going on my knees in
front of him, I finished the good work between my titties.
A short time after this caprice, my lover demanded the like of me. He
recalled the promise I had made him and, in spite of a certain shame
which had taken possession of me, I lent myself to his pleasure and
stretched myself on the settee.
'No, not like that, you placed me to your liking, now it is my turn.'
'But what do you want?'
'You will see. Place yourself on this chair—like that-very well, now
uncover your little pussy and tickle it with your left hand.'
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Though puzzled, I obeyed. By now, Formatey had unclasped my
corsage and stripped me to the waist. My lascivious instincts now
kindled, what I had at first taken in hand as a joke I now began to take
very seriously indeed.
Then I felt Formatey, who had placed himself behind me, insinuate his
engine under my right arm. The originality of this fantasy inflamed my
lustful imagination. I bent my head and avidly contemplated his
handsome tool, whose helmet appeared and disappeared at each
thrust of my dear lover who, for his part, had his eyes fixed on my left
hand, which was by now working at its best.
Very soon our sighs mingled, we mutually warned each other, and our
discharges took place at the same instant.
Some delicious months rolled by and our passion, far from weakening,
or blunting our sensibilities from its frequency, only caused our love to
grow more intense.
The precautions that we had taken with so much care assured us
secrecy, and only once were we nearly surprised. We believed
ourselves certain not to be disturbed, my husband was away, and I had
sent my servants on errands at some distance.
After a chat and some caresses, I had made my lover understand my
desires, and he had me placed to his liking, my body thrown back in
my easy chair, my legs well apart and thus he commenced his adorable
licking. I was ready to come, my eyes were closed, I was thinking only
of myself and tasting one by one the delicious sensations his tongue
was creating when all at once we heard steps on the stairs and voices in
the next room.
Quick as lightning, we both jumped up, set our clothes to rights and sat
ourselves at a proper distance when my maid, returning sooner than I
had expected, opened the door and announced a lady of the town.
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I was so terribly stunned that I could not move but the coolness and
presence of mind on the part of my lover, who fortunately knew the
lady, gave me time to compose myself and we were saved!
The fine weather arrived and I had to go to a spa a little distance from
my hometown. I dreaded it, for I thought it would separate me from my
lover, and Formatey was in despair. However, my husband insisted
upon it and, as you may imagine, we did not wish to admit the real
reason for my reluctance.
My husband could not accompany me, his occupation kept him at
home, but he arranged to visit me frequently and to join me for a
longer time as soon as he was able.
As for Formatey, it would be too imprudent to have received him.
I set off full of vexation, and passed the early days of my stay very
quietly.
At the end of the first week, my husband came to see me and told me
that shortly he would bring Formatey and two other friends to pass the
day. Hope sprang anew, and I waited with feverish impatience.
At last, six days later, I received a letter that this trip had been fixed
for the next day.
Having set out the day before, the gentlemen arrived at four o'clock in
the morning. My husband came at once to find me and lay down by my
side. Absence had awakened his rare desires, and although I
anticipated being feasted by my dear Formatey, I should here avow
that I willingly lent myself to Charles's wishes.
I clasped him in my arms, slipped my hand under his shirt and, taking
his instrument, I gently worked it up with my fingers for a few seconds:
then, having put it in its finest state of erection, I introduced it into my
grotto.
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Charles performed better than usual and swore to me that the caresses
of my hand had made him experience the liveliest sensation of
pleasure. Since then I have often made use of this means to excite him
for my own satisfaction and sometimes even at his own request. We
then slept until nine o'clock.
We went to breakfast at the hotel dining room with the gentlemen; the
meal was an excellent one and we were all very gay. My dear
Formatey sparkled with wit and verve. We could only communicate
with our eyes but this language was well understood by us, and the
message read, as plain as day, when can we meet alone?
It was my husband who unwittingly fixed matters for us. He proposed a
lunch party in the woods and declared that after having conducted me
back to the house, he would return to the hotel to lie down and recover
from the fatigue of the ride the night before.
Formatey declared that he would employ that time in seeing some old
friends; and the others said that they were going to visit the baths.
One glance exchanged with my lover was sufficient for me to
understand him and, at noon when my husband was fast asleep at the
hotel, Formatey slipped into my chamber.
Knowing his taste I had made a seductive toilette with a piquant head
dress and donned rose-coloured stockings and fine slippers. I was clad
only in a light peignoir, which my lover called a foutoir. I waited with
impatience and was delirious the moment he appeared and devoured
him with kisses.
'Ah, here you are at last, my dear angel, my dear love! Oh, how I have
longed for you, come to my arms that I may devour you!
I closed the door and drew him towards the bed.
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'Oh, come to my arms, seeing it's been two weeks without you! I thought
I should die—how I have suffered!'
'And I, my darling, I have scarcely lived! We have not much time, let us
profit by the opportunity quickly before some one comes to interrupt
us.'
'Oh yes, we will, I am entirely yours to do with as you wish.'
As I finished these words, my peignoir was already on the floor. My
lover undressed himself, then arranged me on the edge of the bed,
placing two pillows behind me. Then he caressed and sucked my titties
for some time, before raising my chemise and applying his burning lips
to my hungry pussy which received this caress with a spasm of
happiness.
'Ah, my darling,' I said, 'ah, I am spending already—it is coming
again!—Ah, what delight! Oh, you are slaying me! Me now—come,
put it into me—come, poke me!'
Formatey raised himself, lifted my legs up on his arms and began to
thrust steadily into me. As for me, I was lying back softly and I followed
his sweet activity with languorous eyes.
'Do it gently, slowly!' I said, 'let us be very long about it! Ah, how very
good it is! It penetrates me to the heart! Ah! I am dying! Stop—
slowdown! stopa—little! Ah, I'm there, I am doing it—I am coming!'
'I, also, ah, I cannot hold out any longer, my darling, my fouteuse, I am
coming—I give-you—my—semen!'
I remained swooning, but unsatisfied. My lover was still stretched out
upon me, I had encircled his head with both arms and glued my mouth
to his.
'Ah,' I whispered, 'you have done it much too quickly!'
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'I could not stop myself—but do not move!'
'What do you want to do then?' was the question I naturally asked.
'You see that I am remaining inside you.'
'But I am all flooded, can't you see?'
'What does it matter, I am going to poke you again without leaving
your sheath.'
'But is it possible?'
'You will see—how adorable your titties are, my darling. Give me your
tongue, nicely now,—ah, that is like it! Move your dear bottom
sweetly! There it is, wakening me up—can't you feel it?'
'Yes, it is returning—I can hold out no longer—I am doing it again!
Start again, more quickly! I am dying—I am going mad—I'm doing
it—I'm fuc... I'm doing it all the time, are you ready?'
'It's coming! I'm coming again. There—there it is!'
And a second discharge came to mingle itself with the first. For a time
we remained in a swoon, then Formatey, lowering my legs, withdrew
from me and a veritable deluge of amorous liquor fell to the floor.
I raised myself then and squeezed my lover in my arms, 'Ah, now happy
I have been, I have spent as I have never spent before; and almost
without a second's interruption.'
It was imperative for us to clear away all traces of our excesses; my
thighs and stomach were literally covered with the sweet liquor. I had
no bathroom but could not remain in such a condition so, taking my
wash basin and telling Formatey to turn away, I made ablutions.
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My lover, far from obeying me, did not refrain from devouring every
single motion of mine and, as I finished, he took me in his arms and with
my clothes thrown up, he smothered me with kisses and said: 'I want to
poke you again!'
'Oh no, pray, you will make yourself ill.'
'Here, look it is again in full erection.'
The sight was all that was necessary to finish sending me mad. I flung
myself on my knees, seized the beautiful rubicund head in my mouth
and sucked it in delirium—when all at once I heard steps in the
passage.
I sprang up and with one bound was at the door, looking through the
keyhole, for if it were my husband, we were lost. Happily I was
mistaken and I motioned to Formatey, that it was all right, but
remained watching and, with my eye at the keyhole stood in such a
position that my naked buttocks were thrust up in the air. In a second
my lover was behind me and before I had time to protest—even if I
were so minded—I was penetrated from behind afresh, stormed by this
adorable instrument which did not seem to want to rest! Oh, how I
urged him on by opening and closing my buttocks, by writhing and
panting— but enough...
The time had passed like lightning, so I sent my lover away, hastily
remade the bed and put on a walking costume. Scarcely had I finished
when my husband came to fetch me. He found me flushed and
animated; I told him that I had allowed myself to be overcome by the
heat and I had been sleeping.
We went downstairs and I was saluted with joyous acclamation by the
gentlemen, who paid me compliments on the freshness and good taste
of my toilette. I stole a glance at Formatey and happily nothing in his
appearance announced that anything extraordinary had happened to
him. So we went outside.
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The woods to which we went were deliciously fresh and beautiful and
we soon reached a lodge where food had been prepared for us and the
eating of it was the occasion of wild gaiety. They made me drink some
champagne, of which I had a little need to make me feel exalted.
After lunch, we took a little stroll. My husband was chatting with
Formatey while I walked along quietly by them, the two others having
taken another road.
We soon arrived at a wild and awesome spot, filled with rocks and
shaded by great trees. At this very moment one of the gentlemen far
away from us called to my husband:
'Come quickly and look at this!'
Charles left us, running in the direction of his friends. Immediately he
had disappeared from our sight, Formatey glued his mouth to mine.
'Dear angel,' he said, 'we must make the most of this opportunity.'
'Are you mad?'
'Oh, no, I simply love you to distraction, will you let me do it?'
'Mon Dieu, someone will surprise us and I shall be lost.'
'No, not if we hurry. Bend over.'
I did as I was told.
'Are you there?'
'There it is—it is going in.'
'Ah, do it quickly—I am all of a tremble.'
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'There, darling—come! Come again!'
'Ah, it is done; now withdraw quickly.'
'Ah, Mon Dieu!'
My petticoats, which had been raised from behind, were scarcely
lowered when we heard the party returning.
I went to meet them; they were coming to fetch us to observe a swarm
of bees which were buzzing round the top of a tree.
We strolled back to the carriage and returned to the hotel. In the
evening we had a dance in the drawing room of the establishment;
then we bade one another adieu. The gentlemen left away early the
next morning and my husband remained with me.
You can imagine what I was thinking when I returned home and spent
the day in ordinary duties. On getting ready for bed, while I was busy
arranging my head dress in front of the mirror my husband, enchanted
by the day's outing, was gay and tender. I had put on a chemise which
revealed the seductive charms of my buttocks from behind. I perceived
that Charles was gazing at them and, as I watched him in the glass, I
saw his eyes brighten.
'Well, well,' I said to myself, 'is it be possible that he is capable of doing
me twice in the same day?'
Wishing to assure myself of it, I coquettishly took a pose which further
exhibited what I knew to be one of my prime assets. Then,
nonchalantly putting one foot on a chair, taking care that my chemise
was lifted up more than was necessary. I took off my garter.
This manoeuvre succeeded. Charles, dressed only in his shirt, came to
me, he kissed me on the neck, and put his hand between my buttocks.
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'Stop!' I said to him, turning round and embracing him as I returned his
kiss. 'What has got into you this evening?'
'My dear one, I find you very beautiful.'
'But am I not so, every day?'
'Yes, but this evening more than ever.'
'Well, what do you want? Let us see.' Saying this, I put my hand on his
instrument, which stood up a little but was far from being in a fit state.
'You see that you cannot do anything.'
'Oh, but I pray you, caress it a little.'
'What is it then that excites it thus?”
'It's... that is...'
'What then?'
'The sight of your beautiful backsides.'
'Well then, you shalt not see them any more—' but, while saying this I,
by a cat-like movement threw my clothes up in such a manner that the
whole of my posteriors was revealed while the front of me was
reflected in the mirror. At the same time my other hand had not let go
of his tool. I soon had the satisfaction of feeling it harden. Wishing to
profit by this situation, I made Charles sit down and seated myself
astride him, but I speedily perceived that he had weakened and that
the position I had taken would not be at all suitable to his tiny tool.
I raised myself, everything had to be done all over again. I was much
too excited to attain my ends, so I recommenced the caress of my hand.
I put into it all my skill and by his aid I at last had the satisfaction of
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seeing it, his weapon once more in its handsomest state. Then, drawing
a chair near the glass, I placed one foot on it and the other on the floor
and introduced Charles from behind.
Charles, carried away and beyond himself, did me in such a fashion as
to make me come three times. As for him he took a long time
succeeded after an effort in discharging, thanks to the smart
movements of my buttocks and the talent I had acquired of tightening
my sheath on his wretched instrument.
Finally we retired and went to sleep, both much fatigued.
Thus on this eventful day I had been caressed six times! And as for
myself—I do not exaggerate in saying that I had come more than
twenty times. But such was the heat of my temperament and its
aptitude for amorous combats, that I got up the next morning as fresh
as if nothing out of the ordinary had taken place.
I returned home... and resumed my affair with my dear Formatey.
My husband rarely absented himself for more than a day at a time and
so our pleasures were of no great duration simply brief instants
snatched during the day. However, on occasion some indispensable
journeys took place and we made the most of them.
One night, happy in the knowledge that we had several hours of
security, we decided to completely profit by our good fortune; my
lover proposed that we undress ourselves and use my bed. I accepted
with enthusiasm and soon he was lying on his back wearing nothing
but his shirt, while I was unlacing myself.
I joined him, having nothing on but my chemise and stockings. He
seized me in his arms and we embraced each other furiously. It was but
a moment before my lover became jealous of the flimsy material that
still covered me, and he drew off my remaining clothes in spite of the
slight resistance that I made.
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At first he contemplated my naked charms then he covered every inch
of my body with burning kisses—I was delirious! I was mad!
I wished in my turn to render him the happiness which I had
experienced, so I kissed with ardour every part of his beautiful, manly
body. At a certain spot—a cherished jewel which stuck itself up in so
fiery a manner I could have eaten it—I stopped and kissed and sucked.
In this posture my buttocks were almost turned to my lover's side. I felt
him take hold of my left thigh and seek to make it pass beneath him.
'What do you want to do?' I asked, turning my head a little in order to
see what he was at.
'Straddle.'
'But what do you want to do?'
'You will soon know. There, like that!' and I found myself astride his
chest, my head still in the same place.
'No,' said he, 'lower yourself and push your beautiful backside a little
forward; there—now place your pretty little vulva on my mouth.'
'I am there.'
'Let us both do minette; you will warn me so that we will come
together.'
Although puzzled at this new fashion of getting pleasure, I lent myself
to it with good grace. Speedily I felt his delicious tongue wandering in
my pussy. I became wild—I took the instrument that I had left for a
moment. I put its entire head into my mouth and pumped with frenzy!
An electric current seemed to shoot through my body; each blow of
Formatey's tongue was returning to him by my suction. What pleasure!
I had already come three times when I felt the fourth spend arriving
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with my lover also approaching the supreme pleasure, palpitating and
quivering, so I said:
'I am there—I am coming!'
What happened I do not know, I swooned and nearly lost my senses
under a burning jet of amorous liquid.
The adorable lessons my lover had taught me, rendered me very
skilful. I thought I had nothing to learn, but I deceived myself for there
remained one more a supreme lesson.
I have often stated that my buttocks or rather my backside was of rare
beauty; the furrow which divided the oval had already received
thousands of kisses from my lover, whose greatest pleasure was in
placing me in such a position that he could thoroughly enjoy this
spectacle.
He would partly then open the lips of my pussy, caressing and kissing
it, feasting it in every manner—and sometimes his finger would mount
a little higher and I felt a strange titillation at the secret spot placed
just above.
Sometimes, when sworded up to the hilt and swooning under the
celestial dew which he was darting into me, I had felt his finger
penetrate very far into this narrow passage.
This singular caress had always given me a peculiar, voluptuous
feeling and I had not sought to analyse it.
On one of the rare evenings when we were able to sleep together after
having caressed one another for a long time, my lover drew off my
chemise and lovingly observed my naked form.
Knowing my passion for the unusual, he was always trying some new
way and when I presented my bottom to him, opening myself to the
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utmost, expecting him to put it in as usual, Formatey contented himself
with caressing me with the head of his priapus.
'Put it into me, then, you are making me die with a slow fire.'
'Wait a little yet.'
'Ah, what is it that you are doing to me? You are doing it wrong, it
doesn't go in there!'
In fact I felt his point seeking to enter into this singular orifice of which
I have just spoken.
'Let me do it so, my beloved one, I pray you; there should not remain a
single spot in your beautiful body in which I have not deposited an
offering.'
'But this it not possible, it will never enter.'
'Oh, yes, it shall enter entirely, if you will allow me to do it.'
'But you will kill me, I shall suffer so—I shall cry out—I shall not enjoy
it.'
'Oh yes, you will and afterwards you shall say yourself that it was very
good. I will even wager that you will ask me to do it again more than
once.'
'No, it is impossible, put it in lower down, where you can do as you will.'
'But I beg you—it is the greatest proof of love that a woman can give. I
implore you.'
'Ah, Mon Dieu, I cannot refuse you—come do it, but it is very singular.'
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So I said nothing more and, remaining passive, presented my posterior
in the best manner that I could. My lover went to my dressing table and
lubricated himself with a cosmetic, then resuming his place he
presented himself afresh at the entrance.
His first attempt did not succeed and instead of having the promised
pleasure I felt only pains but I loved him so much that I would have
suffered more. And apart from this, curiosity and the desire for the
unknown sustained me.
My lover arrested his movement for a little and, passing his hand
around in front of me, he started touching me.
The pleasure thus kindled demanded a second trial but my lover's
position, bent over me, made it difficult for him to continue this caress,
so he took my hand and put it where his had been. I comprehended
and titillated myself.
I felt his terrible weapon afresh but the pleasure I was obtaining for
myself neutralized the pain which my poor backside still felt. At last I
felt as if a ring was dilating within me and, with another blow, the
entire cylinder was sheathed entirely. I redoubled my movements and
an immense, double—bitter—enjoyment invaded me. I nearly lost
consciousness and fell forward, stretched in a spasm impossible to
describe.
My lover happily was not unhorsed, he followed my movements and
found himself stretched at full length upon me. He still gave several
blows and filled his singular lodging place with a warm ejaculation
thrust home with heavy sighs, witnesses of his vivid enjoyment.
We remained for a time in this position without speaking. I felt a
certain shame that I could not explain and almost regretted that I had
enjoyed it so much. On the other hand, I could not prevent myself from
being enchanted with this new style of pleasure. Formatey kissed me
and whispered:
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'Eh, well, what do you say?'
'I don't know what to say.'
'Have you come?'
'Eh... yes...'
'Are you vexed at having yielded to my caprice? If I ask it again of you,
will you...'
'Why yes, I believe that—well, yes, but not too often. It is too much!'
During this conversation we had remained with my lover's pin thrust
into my dainty hole, I felt it become small, he tried to withdraw it but I
tightened my buttocks to such a point that I held him willy nilly to his
post.
'You wished to go in—now you will stay in.'
I had counted on his virility and whilst waiting for his revival, I excited
him, using all the words he had taught me.
'What does you call this manner of fuck... poking?' I asked him, 'you
know my poor cunt has received nothing?'
'Ah,' he interrupted, 'I feel my cock coming to life again shall I again
feast on your backside?'
'Yes, dearest, I feel I have a taste for it—and I still want semen.'
And with this smuttiness, I clenched my buttocks gradually so as to
give him liberty of action. I commenced to feel afresh the forerunners
of the double enjoyment which I had already experienced but my
lover did not seem to be ready, he seemed to me to be feeble, so we
replaced ourselves in our former position, and I said:
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'Now, my darling, don't you move just let me do everything.'
So I began to move my arse backward and forward, while my lover, on
his knees, was motionless, passionately contemplating this libidinous
spectacle. He saw, so he told me afterwards, his arrow as if in a sheath,
appear and then disappear completely in its quiver.
After some moments of this delicious manoeuvre, my lover regained
his strength and I felt the growing thickness of his member and
inarticulate words came from his mouth. I warned him that I was once
more ready to come and at the same moment a fresh jet of semen
erupted and made us both nearly swoon with joy.
My well beloved Formatey had been in the right—I did take pleasure
in it! How many times since, while bending over me, has he said:
'Watch out here it comes!'
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